Rejection, Tonsillectomy and Novellas

I struggled with whether or not I should write this post. But then I thought, “Put yourself out there and quit sitting in the corner sulking. What are ya, a baby?!” That depends…the past few days have been full of uncertainty, big decisions and little luck finding a Leprechaun at the end of a rainbow with a pot of gold. Okay…maybe not the latter.

My youngest little man has been suffering with constant sore throats and strep over the past 6-12 months. About every 4-6 weeks, those darn tonsils start giving us trouble.

Science lesson 101: Where are your tonsils and WHY do we have them.

Tonsils are the two bumps or rounds of tissue located in the back of the throat, and are made up of what is called lymphoid tissue. Lymphoid tissue produces lymphocytes — white blood cells that help fight infections. Traditionally, doctors would consider the production of lymphocytes a good thing, since it would seem to help people fight off illness with greater ease. But, many people suffer with constant bacterial infections and snoring at night, benefit from having them removed.

This is the boat we now sit in. We are “rowing” towards March 30th when these little mounds of infectious tissue are removed from my son’s throat. As a mother hen, I am a bit nervous about putting him under and having the doctor messin’ around in his mouth with a bunch of sharp knives, but the constant rounds of antibiotics and sick days on the couch need to come to an end. I am convincing myself of this through tears of uncertainty. Mr.Tissue and I have been friends for the past few days….

I really didn’t tell anyone except for a few family members…but I submitted my manuscript, The Gift of Fate, to a publisher a few weeks back. Even though I self-published, I wanted to see if there was any interest there. Well, there was…at first.

As an author, it is VERY difficult not to get your hopes up, especially when your story is acknowledged and there is a positive feeling that perhaps…this is the one. As many of you authors know, rejection is part of the game, but acknowledgement doesn’t happen often either. Most of the time your emails get sent out into some black hole that I KNOW resides above Barnes & Noble’s headquarters in New York. A swirling dark cloud of hopefulness from a world full of writers trying to follow their dreams.

Nope. A total let-down. I cried through a half bag of chocolate chips, a Dr.Pepper and threw a temper tantrum on the floor as my dog watched from afar, rolling her eyes at me yesterday.

It made me sad, it made me mad…it made me wish I had, a box of ziploc bags made by Glad.

I will NOT give up on writing though. I am passionate about it. I think I have a great story to tell, and I have a million more waiting to be written down. This is where the idea of novellas came in…

Short stories to a totally awesome series, now there’s a thought, Val!  After eating that bag of chocolate chips, I wrote down an idea for a novella…a slew of novellas actually, telling a sweet little tale about something totally unique and undeniably different than anything out there.

I am nearly complete with the 2nd book in the Fatum Saga already. Perhaps starting a new novella series on the side would be beneficial in polishing my writing skills as well.

At this point in time, I don’t need a publisher. I need to simply write and share what my heart feels. I’m going to STOP doing this…

And start doing this….

Happy Tuesday!

XO~

VSK

Comments

  1. Auntie Carol says:

    Val, you make me smile and I feel you concerns over Adi…Loved the emotions and pictures you used in your blog…I love creativity and you have inspired me!
    I love you, Aunt Carol….your fan for life!

  2. Aaaaah, I’m sorry on both counts! I relate to your nerves on the surgery; Li’l D had to have a minor one when he was six months old, and I was wrecked for several days beforehand. He came through with flying colors and, though it sucked to watch him be put under, he did great. As I’m sure your littlest guy will do. (>^^)>

  3. Ouch on both counts. Tonsil problems stink. I hope the surgery alleviates all his pain and his recovery is quick. Rejection is tough. You are handling it really well. Just know for every no, there is an eventual yes. 🙂 There has to be.

    • Kourtney,

      What a sweet, sweet comment. Thank you my friend. You just made my day. I know surgery is the best option for my sweet one, just a wee bit scary for his mommy.

      And yes, rejection hurts. But, I have faith and a heart full of perseverance. Chocolate chips and caffeine do help tremendously too though. 😉

      Hugs to you!

  4. I’ve been through a lot of rejection. Some soul sucking moments. Where I thought this can’t be worth it. But I kept at it. And some good things have happened lately. Keep going. We never know when the payoff is coming, but we have to keep at it. 🙂

    Hugs back!

  5. Oh man, rejection is hard. I’m trying really hard not to get my hopes up on my current full submission, but I know that if it doesn’t work out, I’ll be crying into my cupcakes for a good long while.

    Don’t give up! You’ll find your perfect match.

  6. I want to be an author in the future, but I think I’ll probably be the one that never lets anyone have a look for fear of rejection. Did they even give you a reason?

    • Oh sweetie, don’t not submit because of fear of rejection! It is everywhere! The author who wrote “The Help” was rejected 67 times before finally being accepted. She got a book AND movie deal out of it. Never ever give up hope! It only takes one…yes. 🙂
      Yes, they told me they LOVED the story, but felt it needed some clarification. I plan on finishing the entire saga (4 books total) and then resubmit to agencies at that time. Sometimes I think publishers say no if you are writing a saga or trilogy because they are afraid you won’t follow through and finish. They don’t want to publish the first book only to find out that you’ll never get around to finishing the rest. I see the entire story in my head, but I don’t think they could envision it because I haven’t written the last three books. My second book is halfway finished though. I think the clarification they are asking for will come when they read the rest of the story. 😉

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